This sentiment is expressed many different ways, as I am sure that each person has a unique reason for understanding it. My introduction to it came when I was around ten years old, on an avenue in east L.A. sometime after dark. Having lived in Los Angeles all of my life I had grown accustomed to the occasional tell tale signs of gang activity that are ever-present in most parts of the city. Graffiti and depressing nightly news stories about violence effecting innocent passers by were numbingly frequent. But I had never seen the stark pain and senselessness that accompanies such lawless behavior. That night I saw it first hand. It changed me.
My family and I were coming home from the city some time around nine o’clock. In order to get home from downtown we needed to pass through an area that is home to “The Avenue” gangs.As we drove down one of these avenues I noticed a huddled shape lying in the road. My mother, the driver, also saw the figure and as we drew closer, we all realized that the shape was a person. He was a boy, maybe slightly older then myself. His bicycle lay discarded nearby. He had been shot, what turned out to be four times, if I recall correctly.
My mother is a doctor. Though she practices dermatology, she is a veteran of what is dubbed “the knife and gun club”, the L.A. county ER. While I cannot remember the exact decision to stop the car, I do remember her tending to the wounded boy in the road. I remember her doing what she could until the ambulance arrived. I remember that she was able to help while no one else could. I remember her telling us later that he had been shot because, when asked by a passing car full of gang members where he lived, he had replied “a few blocks up”, and that had been the wrong answer.
That night has influenced me greatly. Over time I developed two distinct ideas in response to it. First, that I should make myself ready to help the injured or dying. For most people, thinking of a doctor brings memories of dentists’ drills, funny paper gowns, cold linoleum flooring and uncomfortable exams. Some who watch dramatic television picture legions of beautiful men and women pausing from sordid lives to help sympathetic patients in crowded emergency rooms. I think of that boy, bleeding in the gutter. I think of a stranger stopping to do everything in their power to make sure that boys’ life would not end there in the street. I think of medicine as a tool to bring people from vastly different backgrounds together, no matter what the circumstance, in order to save lives, and repair the damage done by cruel deeds.
The second idea was that I should always try to keep the safety of my community a high priority, and that supporting law and justice to protect innocent lives was of the utmost importance. But as I have grown, I think that is no longer enough. That night sensitized me to all the news stories I had come to believe were just a fact of life. I quickly realized that it was not just one avenue a few miles from my home where laws and justice had failed innocent people. I began to see that entire nations were at risk of similar victimization. A notion that was driven home as if by a sledgehammer in September a few years later.
Thus I have turned to studying both International Relations and Medicine. My hope is to learn, on the largest, and most personal scales, how to help people live their lives safely, and how to help when things inevitably go wrong like that night in the streets of Los Angeles, or the other day in Iraq. While I state sardonically elsewhere in this blog that I hope to cure all the worlds’ ills, that night has made me believe that by helping one person live to see another day, by fighting to repair an injustice, you can make a world of difference. It may be idealistic, it may be unrealistic, but that is what I believe.